I'm not dead, but I'm so incredibly busy.

My brother and best friend came to visit and that was amazing.

That following weekend I went to visit my boyfriend in NY.

The week after I was sad and didn't feel like doing anything.

and this last week I have a viral infection and I'm just coughing

and being sick. Finals are coming so I don't know how I'll

update this or have time for anything else. Sorry <3 I hope

everyone is still kicking ass.

I made it 5 days of fasting. I'm very pleased with myself. I ate

some lunch today. It was macaroni and cheese. It would have

been my sixth day fasting if my mom, dad, brother and best friend

weren't coming. I'm sad I didn't go longer with my fast, but I'm

so happy that they're coming. I've missed them and I love them.

+mac&cheese

+diet coke

- weight lifting

= 600? (no clue how many calories.)

I won't be updating this weekend because they will be staying with

me. Mom and dad are staying in a hotel. I can't risk anything. I hope you

all have a great weekend!

I'm extremely weak today. My muscles ache.. my eyes ache.. everything

does. I passed my lab practical and I finished lab kind of early so I'm

thinking about taking a nap before I have to get up for art history. I'm

so exhausted and it's not like I went to bed at an unreasonable hour too.

I'm constantly tired. Even when I eat I'm still tired.

+cup of coffee

+adderall

+2 crackers

+30 calories

My friend wants to work out later today.. I'm going to see how I'm feeling.

It would suck to passout at the gym.

I just got back from weight lifting this morning and I was sweating

my ass off. Literally. It started raining right as we came inside and I didn't

bring my rain coat. When class was over I had to ride my bike back in the

rain and now I'm soaked so I'm going to take a quick shower before I have

to go to genetics. I'm thinking that if I can't have a scale then I should think

about getting measuring tape. I get so incredibly depressed  thinking I'm doing all

this work and I have no idea what I'm losing- if I'm even losing anything at all.

It really upsets me... I really want to cry about it but I'm trying not to..

+cup of coffee

+4 handfuls of popcorn

+51 calorie

-30mins weight lifting

Turns out the guy I took the shift for lied to me and he really was supposed

to get off at 8pm. I was so exhausted/pissed. I really need to study for chemistry,

so I'll probably do that instead of working out. I'll edit again later if any changes

happen. My stomach growls are horrendous this afternoon...

I just woke up a little while ago and made some coffee but

I have to leave for class soon. I really don't feel like getting

ready at all.. I just want to stay in my sweatpants and baggy

t-shirt but I know I have to put at least something decent on.

I have work later at 4pm to 7pm and I really regret picking that

shift up. I'm feeling incredibly lazy today.

+cup of coffee

+15mg adderall

+ 1 calorie

I know I said I'd like to go to the gym today but I'm not sure if that will happen.

I just took some adderall and that seems to give me a little more energy so I'll

update this again later if anything changes like always.